Core-Experiences
Part 5: Group Experiences and Insights 1992 - 1993
Written by Gary Osborn between 1992 and 1997.
Copyright © G Osborn 1997. All Rights Reserved.
Gary:
It was soon after these strange UFO-related incidents that I began to receive some metaphysical insights into the nature of consciousness and reality.
The first “cluster” of insights I can remember very well, was when Paul and his family and I were visiting and staying at our mother’s house one weekend. On that Saturday night we all sat in the living room and watched an interesting programme about slow and high-speed photography. It was a National Geographic programme called The Invisible World. We never planned to watch this programme; it’s very rare for our family to sit down and watch something like this together. I think Paul was running through one of my videocassettes to find a particular programme that I said may have been recorded on the tape. The programme Paul was looking for was the Horizon programme about the mysterious sudden extinction of the Dinosaurs, and which I had mentioned in a radio conversation I had with UFO investigator, Timothy Good some time back.
Paul gave up looking for the Horizon programme and came across The Invisible World instead. I had already recorded this programme a few years ago, but had never got around to watching it. Paul then ran the tape because he thought it might be interesting – which it was.
This programme soon had hold of everyone’s attention, and while watching it I had a series of incredible insights into the world of vibration, frequency and resonance. I am sure that this insight was an indirect result of that programme, as it dealt with the different time dilations and frequencies of nature that lay outside our normal field of perception. This programme prompted something in my mind, and after it had finished, I quickly turned to the others and told them what I had just grasped. I told them that I now understood how we seem to be living on a frequency, and I quickly gave a few analogies of my own to explain this insight.
I myself was amazed at the analogies I was making, and which seemed to flow easily from my lips. I later wrote them down in my notebook as an addition to the insights I was already receiving about what I then called ‘Universal Consciousness’ – a term which – like many others – has now become another prosaic aphorism linked to the New-Age movement.
My insights into the nature of consciousness were beginning to take shape and at the time, I didn’t have a clue where all this information was coming from.
It would seem that the energy released via Paul’s experiences was also having an effect on me – as if the energy had spilled over into my own consciousness but was affecting me in a different way.
What I was then beginning to formulate had a logical conciseness about it. It seems our own understanding of this knowledge has to evolve because we have to clear away the foundation of our ‘internal dialogue’ – i.e., the particular ‘mind-set’ patterns that we have been indoctrinated with and have been conditioned to repeat over the years . . .
The analogies I used to describe my insights into the vibrations and frequencies of matter was also inspired by a joint input of ideas and insights by all who happened to be there that night.
Since then I have seen numerous themes in other people’s books that are very similar, so the revelation that we are all living on a frequency is “old-hat” to us now – although I am aware that many of us still haven’t awakened to this particular erudition about our reality, which is really within all of us.
I can see how many people who believe in the paranormal, and who want to understand it and try to explain it, will usually espouse this conception of frequencies - using the analogy of different raido stations and TV stations to explain that our reality is just like one of these channels or stations and that there are numerous others.
Since then I have discovered more about the nature of frequency, how these frequencies differentiate, and that this differentiation is linked to our perception and level of consciousness. I have also discovered that matter seems to be oscillating at a higher frequency than the oscillations of that part of our consciousness that perceives it, observes it and interacts with it. My own theory behind this understanding is given elsewhere. See The Jump Gate, (coming soon) for a brief account of this understanding of frequency and how it relates to both consciousness and matter.
Its funny, I remember my earlier conception of vibration and frequency, being such a revelation to me. This was my understanding then and so I was still limited to the illusion that we each believe that we have to have a body no matter how substantial or rarefied it is. I now realise that all the bodies we acquire – both here and in another reality – and no matter how dense or rarefied these bodies are – are all illusions. In truth we all come from one point of energy that really has no dimension to it at all – well not in the way that we understand 'dimension'. Nevertheless, it would seem that each of us has the ability to ‘shapeshift’ into anything we desire once we are free of repetitive patterning. Of course, this is difficult to do, because this repetitive patterning seems to be related to our internal dialogue, which again is cyclical. Our internal dialogue is made up of the same information that has been imprinted on our central nervous system over the years. This information is more-or-less a fixed pattern that swirls around like a constellation within our consciousness. This internal pattern is projected externally to create the same patterns of our reality, so we are constantly creating ourselves and a particular reality to exist in and this reality is the pattern of our internal dialogue. So then, the many bodies and forms we acquire are just expressions and have no truth in themselves other than being illusory.
I soon got fed up with writing down my insights on paper, as it wasn’t easy to correct my mistakes, and so it was about this time that I began to use the word processor on our family’s computer. From that moment the words began to pour out of me . . . it was as if whatever piece I was working on was writing itself!
Many a time I would write something and then I would go back over it to change the things that I was critical about. I soon realised that I was doing this because the information that I had picked up throughout my life and that has now become the content of my internal dialogue had narrowed my own understanding. It is as if we become contaminated by all the ‘background noise’ of a particular reality we are focused and participating in.
As I wrote I began to have more and more insights into paranormal phenomena, consciousness, and the nature of reality; that all these things were somehow linked by something that I was just beginning to catch a glimpse of.
Any free time I had, I would be spent sitting in front of the computer. I would often be writing into the early hours of the morning – God knows the rate of electromagnetic emission that I have been exposed to over the years. Most of the time I would come away with a headache, but I was never exhausted, it was as if these insights gave me energy. I suppose many people would say that I was obsessed, but I would say that I was ‘impassioned’ with this new material which was beginning to take shape.
It was also about this time that I then began to look further into Colin Wilson’s conception of the “Outsider.” I could relate to his ideas because I saw myself as a frustrated ‘Outsider’ for many reasons – some of which cropped up, in my own writings. The many influences that relate to my identification with Colin Wilson’s ‘Outsiders’ came from these early experiences.
During the latter part of 1992, there were many times when I would be sitting at my art desk – when suddenly certain insights would just “flash” into my mind. I would then begin to write them down on any piece of old paper or card that happened to be lying around.
One of these written pieces was so inspiring that I had to cut it out of the card that I was actually doing an artwork on! I have kept some of these bits and pieces to this day.
It was after I began writing down these odd notes that I considered the fairly obvious impression that I was actually channelling something . . . but at that time I didn’t have a clue where it could have come from. I mean look, here I was a normal bloke who was born and raised in Peckham, London. I wasn’t averse to going out and getting myself drunk every now and then and acting like a “hell-raising” mindless idiot . . . But this . . . this really was not me at first. I suppose it did become a huge part of me in the end, because after all, it was I that was writing it . . . but what a contrast!
What I said and what I wrote really began to confuse those people who had grown up with me in Peckham, and who thought they knew me well enough.
It takes a lot to understand what’s going on here, for it seems that through this phenomenon I have found two facets to my nature that I do enjoy expressing every now and again. I find I can adapt to both the worlds of the ‘seemingly’ ignorant and the ‘seemingly’ intellectual because I feel equally at home with both. I do not put myself above people, so I wouldn’t want anyone assuming that they can do that with me. As I said, I like to come across as a normal bloke with no airs or graces.
This material would just come into my mind like an already constructed sentence or verse. Moreover, sentences would quickly appear one after the other. I used to quickly write them down as they came, because I feared losing or forgetting some of what I had captured. Sometimes I would write down a particular word knowing that it would make sense – although I really didn’t have a clue what the word really meant. It was as if it just looked right. I would later look that word up in a dictionary and find to my amazement that it was the right word and for the right place! It was only after a few of these perfect “coincidences,” that I thought I might be channelling something.
I think I only showed Paul and Ken these writings, as we were all working at the same place at that time. Ken was rather amused at all this and he would often crack jokes about it. I’m sure that his real thoughts were that Paul and I were both a little warped in the head – and under any other circumstances he would have been right. Here’s one of the pieces I wrote at that time:
The ego is that part of us that is certain of its own existence as separate from everything else. It is so certain of this, that it is also certain about the truth of its own perception. Division in consciousness begins with the birth of the ego, and of course, this is a natural process. The ego is the point of conscious focus, which is at the end of an extension of energy into physical and mental reality. It extends from the centre of all consciousness. The ego is but a projection of the true self that makes ignorance its experience. The pretence of Ignorance is vital for one’s existence in a reality. By having a limited knowledge of its intrinsic nature and a limited knowledge of one’s own creative potential, one is always existent in a reality to play a part in this game called Man’s Evolution. Ignorance then is all part of one’s introduction to the story we call evolution, and one will feign ignorance as one enters each of their “chapters” in this story. It is through this ignorance that the ego can recreate or find its own source or centre, but of course this ignorance has an interesting clause or side effect, because the more elevated or important one’s ego becomes through ignorance, the more space it will create between itself and the true centre. In so doing it also creates more separation between itself and others. It is this space which creates division. Division also creates time and dimensional space. Division is not only a property of our physical reality, but it is a property of all the many dimensions and realities that extend from the centre of all consciousness. The rules of the “game” require that one rises above one’s ignorance and also one’s dual perceptions and belief in division, so as to find or recreate one’s own centre. By doing so, one also affects evolution, and the intensity of this effect, and the energy used to create this effect, will help to push the game of evolution to its final goal . . . which is the Centre of All.
Some time later came the following piece and I think that it was from this point that I began to realise something fresh and new in all this that later became this knowledge of the Neutral Point. It was as if what I was writing was familiar somehow . . . as if I was merely regurgitating something deep in my consciousness. Now, when I look back on this I could see how the themes of this book were first beginning to take shape . . .
Take an artist painting a picture: We do not look at him we look instead at the painting; we watch the painting as it is slowly evolving in front of our eyes. Suppose then that we live in the painting, as two-dimensional creatures. We see our two dimensional landscape being created, and we analyse it to find the source of it’s creation, but we can only look at what is being created, and once it is created, we accept it and this causes it to dry, harden, and crystallise – just like the “facts” that we have ascertained from our ‘two dimensional’ perception of it.
Once the brush has made its mark, that particular expression is finished and it hardens and crystallises. The painter is unknown, and the friction that is made between the brush and the canvas gives the picture its existence. But the artist – as his hand wavers – is thinking about the next stroke, and in his anticipation his mind is in the creative state . . . a state that exists between his perception of the resulting crystallised canvas and the picture he has in his imagination.
From our perception he doesn’t exist, neither does his palette . . . The Negative State.
Also, from our perception, the canvas exists because we are in the canvas, and we accept its existence and because of this, things are becoming quickly crystallised from where we are . . . completed. This is The Positive State.
The brush wavers between states, it is suspended and still creative, and moves across the canvas creating the friction between the artist and the canvas. This action is friction between the first two states – The Neutral State. This ‘in-between state’ cannot be measured because it moves about creating as it goes; but it also creates friction which gives by it’s creative principle . . . the existence of the positive and crystallised physical world.
We have used in our analogy a three-dimensional body – the artist, creating a two dimensional world, which is the picture. If we transpose dimensions up one scale we have a four-dimensional creator; creating a three-dimensional landscape using the same friction – the Neutral Point – which lies in-between the first two states and so on through each dimension or level of existence.
Of course while writing this piece, I was inspired by the words that Paul said were spoken to him while he was in the hypnopompic state . . . “The friction between Yes and No.”
